Mr. A1

Can you say "love of my life"? That's right......and I lost him. Actually he lost me! We did everything together! I saved his ass a few times......parties, girls, drugs,......you get the picture. His family loved me and my family loved him. He was so cute! But it was just that.....puppy love. We grew up together. So of course we were really close friends. He would always tell me about his "problems" and I would be there to pick up the peices after things fell apart. Too bad he couldn't see that he had a great thing right in front of his nose! Me! He did ask me to marry him once......too bad he was completely trashed! I told him he wouldn't remember anything in the morning and of course I was right! Anyways, Mr. A1 was a great friend and fun to flirt with. He got really mad though when I started dating Mr. M. Hmm......men! If they can't have you then no one can! I put him in his place but was still his best friend. So here's to the "love of my life" being the best friend ever! :)

Mr. R2

I don't think I will say much about Mr. R2......this is the "best" friend that I had before Mr. M. That's right.....the forceful jerk. He asked me to marry him 13 years ago this week in fact. Why I remember that I will never know. Oh yeah.....because it was during Thanksgiving week! That's why I remember. Anyways, after the "night" I still wanted to be with him. I didn't know any better because it was my first time. Whether I wanted it or not. Too bad he cheated on me with one of the people that I showed my horse against! So I had to see her all the time! But then I met Mr. M. And we all know how that ended! So here's to jerks that snowball everyone around them into liking them. :)

Mr. C2

I must really like the virgins! HAHAHAHA! Here is another one! But this one I "deflowered" as Mr. C would say. Mr. C2 was my 21 year old virgin. He was rough and rugged. Into cars and 4x4's. I was very infatuated. He was a great dancer! I almost couldn't keep up with him! Now that's a first. I love to dance.....but that's a whole other issue. Great dancer, great kisser. We spent an entire weekend in bed together. My roomate, Mrs. R, thought we had died or something. :) It was a great weekend. Too bad he went totally nuts! Talking about families and telling his friends that I am the one that moved too fast. I didn't do anything that wasn't mutual! I don't take! I let him give it to me! His virginity that is. Anyways, enough of young boys.....or so I thought! So here's to hicks and showing them a little bit of fun! :)

Mr. D2

You know that rule? Don't date your ex's best friend? Well.....I did that more than once. Mr. D2 was Mr. M's roomate after we broke up. He was a virgin. So I think it was all about the challenge for me. Nothing happened.....unless you count skinny dipping in eastern Washington. Lol! :) That's about as far as it went. Too bad that an old friend of mine got you drunk and took advantage of you. :( Oh well.......shit happens. I will still be here for you! So here's to the thrill of the challenge! :)

Mr. M2

Let's talk about "the one" for a minute. They tell you that you are so sweet and want to spend their life with you. BULL SHIT!! This is exactly what happened with Mr. M2. We went to school together. He remembers me but I don't remember him at all! Like I said earlier though...those years are kinda a blur to me due to Mr. M. Anyways, Mr. M2.....several years later we worked together. We also were neighbors in the same apartment complex. We started hanging out together on a regular basis. I broke him right out of his shy shell! (I tend to do that with people.....my friends seem to help a lot too!) I found out that my father has cancer. I went to work because my roomate worked there too. (She happened to work on the same team as Mr. M2....but that had nothing to do with it.) I was uncontrolablly crying! I couldn't walk....couldn't talk....couldn't do anything. I sat down next to Mr. M2 and waited for my roomate Miss M1. She finally came back from lunch and asked me what was wrong. I went to her because she had just gone through this same situation with her grandfather. Mr. M2 was very consoling. I finally let it all out to my roomy and I was getting ready to leave. Mr. M2 told me that I shouldn't be driving. So he drove me to the park and we talked. After this our "friendship" went to a new level. I ended up in his apartment several times just hanging out. But this isn't the kicker......on Christmas we decided to have a huge party! This was very normal for my friends. Mr. M2 and I went together. We were actually going to spend the night together. Well, one thing led to another and we ended up leaving early. So he told me that he wanted to start a relationship with me as soon as he delt with his ex. Then New Year's came around and we had the monster's of all parties......that I threw! Mr. M2 was supposed to be my date. I was the DD for the night (Drunk Driver) I had went and gotten everyone and all was good. I got to the house......he was there.......but not waiting for me........he had brought his ex to MY PARTY!!!!! I tossed my keys in the freezer and said, "POUR ME A DRINK.....THIS TAXI IS CLOSED FOR THE NIGHT!" The clock struck midnight and I got to watch him and his ex swap spit for the entire evening! Man just turn that knife and pull out my heart why don't you! Oh well......it wasn't meant to be! We had some really good times though. So here's to the guys who say one thing and do another! :)

Mr. N

Another friend of mine......we went out, drank a little too much, danced all night, went back to his house, had some sort of drunken sex, woke up not knowing where I was or how I got there. Hmmm......sounds like a bad dream....right? Nope! It really happened! We actually still talk. Make little flirty comments to each other and that's where it stops. Well, it was a fun night. I think.......lol! :) So here's to getting drunk and not remembering anything! :)

Mr. R1

Mr. R1, Mr. J2's roomate from New York and gay! What a great thing! We get along fabulously! We have become great friends in the time he has been here.....approx. 2 months. It was nice too because when Mr. J2 was "out" I had someone to talk to. Now we work together and he has met Mr. J3 (which is supposed to be a hush, hush quiet thing) but I think it's great! His boyfriend doesn't treat him the best but he loves him. He moved across the United States for him.....so I give him a chance. Anyways, poor Mr. R1 wants to move back to New York after the holidays. I DON'T THINK SO! Or NOT IF I HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT IT! Lol! I would miss him way too much! Just stay here......I know that you aren't the happiest because you live with Mr. J2.....who would be! I mean come on! Give me a break! Mr J2........we won't go there anymore....... So here's to my bad relationship giving me the chance to meet new people, especially Mr. R1. :)

Mr. D1

Why is it once your friends set you up with someone, they end up resenting you? This is a question that has been on my mind for a while. Mr. D1 was one of these situations. He is Mrs. M's brother. Young, dumb, and you know the rest! :) Anyways, Mr. D1 was my stoner/partier. Always high and drunk. What a combination?! Now why you ask was I so into this one? To tell you the truth, I am not really sure. He was not that cute. All he did was play video games when he wasn't out with his "boys". Running drugs, drinking, video games......what possesed me to go for him? Hmmm........maybe it was because we were both lonely and needed something right now. Mr. right hasn't come along so Mr. right now will work. The sex was good but very speratic. In the car, on the steps, at the lake, in the snow......well you get the picture. If I would have stayed with him, I think I would be in a lot of trouble. Everyone needs a bad boy once in a while though. :) So here's to bad boys that make us feel like a bad ass. :)

Mr. K

Mr. C's old roomate......Mr. K. I told you that we couldn't do anything because that is like the number one cardinal rule.........don't mess with your ex's best friend and/or roomate. Oops! Did I break that rule? Darn it!! Lol! :) I break a lot of rules! I am a bad person! But it's so much fun! :) I will get into the other rules I have broken later. Let's take this one in depth a little bit (no pun intended). It was Thursday night and like normal, the girls and I were going out to the "club" (the royal). We were getting ready at Mrs. M's house and Mr. K called me. Out of the blue. Actually, we had been talking about what happened between Mr. C and me and why it didn't work out. Well the night went on and he showed up at Mrs. M's house. So of course the girls were all over it!......"you need to come out with us! doesn't she (me) look hot tonight!" His response was, "I would love to go out with you lovely ladies....." and "yeah......she looks like an 8 tonight!" I went outside with the girls to have a smoke. They told me that Mr. K was totally into me and that I should go after it! I told them that I couldn't.......the whole cardinal rule thing and he is Mr. C's best friend. Anyways, the night progressed and Mr. K started totally flirting with me and buying me shots......which I can't resist. I explained to him before we even went out that nothing could happen due to his relationship with Mr. C. That didn't stop him.....by the end of the night, I had his tounge down my throat. :) But that wasn't all! He is the only guy I have been with that is not circumcised! So this was a HUGE shock to me! To make a long story short......we had a couple good times and that was it. He thought I wanted a "relationship" with him. NOT THE CASE! I just wanted a good "reliable" friend on the side! HAHAHA! That's all I need.......right? So here's to breakin the rules and havin fun doing so! :)

Mr. T

HAHAHA! I just love that.....Mr. T. Mr. T is another one of my best friends who is gay. He lives in San Diego and that sucks!!!! I wish he lived closer still. But that is just wishful thinking. I can't believe that it has been a year since I have seen him! I need to just get on a plane and fly down there! Hey at least the weather is good! lol! :) I miss his joking personality. And when Mr. J3 and him get together......watch out! It's absolutely awesome! :) They are such great guys! Too bad they are gay! They would be perfect husbands! Oh well.....I love them no matter what! Let me tell you about this time I went to Oak Harbor to see both Mr. J3 and Mr. T......it was an interesting weekend to say the least! Mr. T and I went to pick up this guy that he was seeing (I can't remember his name.....but let me tell you, he had some wingnuts loose!) anyways, we drove to the ferry in his new VW Beetle (blue) with his dog Abby (who is totally a sweetheart!). We get to the ferry and the dude was just like somethings wrong! I mean there was really something just not right with this guy! Almost like he didn't take his Prozac for the day or something. Well.....long story short, they broke up shortly after that. Good Times! So here's to great gay friends.........I love you guys! :)

Mr. P

Let's see...you are Mr. J1's brother. You are not a huge looker but you have the biggest heart out of everyone that I know! You have been a very good friend to me through all the Mr. D, Mr. J1, Mr. J2, and now with Mr. F. Now why is your brother such a jerk? How did you get the "good" genes? I am very happy to say that you have finally found a great girl! I haven't met her yet...but if you say she is good, then I will believe you. So here's to finding happiness, that is finding true happiness.....blissful happiness. :)

Mr. J3

Two of my bests friends....are gay....now that's a pretty picture! I love them both! But they are men and love boobs! HAHAHA! :) It's all good. Mr. J3 has been there for me through all "the boys" and I am very greatful for that. Now, if he could just help me figure out why I want to even be friends with Mr. J2......then I will be set! Mrs. C thinks I am crazy and stupid. I agree with her for the most part. I am having loads of fun with Mr. F right now...no commitment does tend to bring a person's self-esteem down though. We will see what happens. I am not banking on anything. As long as I have Mr. J3 and Mr. T (my other friend who is gay, he lives in San Diego :( darn him!) I will be fine! Everytime I go see Mr. J3.....he is so awesome! I have drinks and a place to stay. Oh and it does help when I bring down Mr. R1. HEHEHE! :) Now I know that I am not supposed to say anything but I think they are so cute together! I am glad that I introduced them! I am no matchmaker......look at my track record/history......so I can get them in the same place at the same time! That's the best I can do.......hey, it works! :) And I should probably mention the fact that I am totally comfortable around Mr. J3....which is kinda weird due to I haven't been that way until I started hanging out with him! Hmmmm.......it's all good though. Good Times as he always says! So here's to gay friends who like my boobs and are always there for me! :)

Mr. F

I have a phrase that I live by......and my friends think is great....."BIGGER IS BETTER!" Boy that is no joke! With Mr. F this is a TRUE statement! Right now...Mr. F and I are just friends with benefits. I don't know if it will ever become more......but why would I need it to be? I go see him, we do our thing.....several times......then I go home. He comes to see me, we do our thing.....again several times.....then he goes home. The best of both worlds! Great sex no commitment! Everyone needs a friend like him! We have made a pact though.....when I go see him, no other girls for him while I am around.......same holds true when he comes up to see me, no other boys for me during the duration of his time. But as soon as he leaves.....fair game! Now I talk about him a lot to Mrs. C and Mr. R2 (Mr. J2's roomate from New York who is gay). But why shouldn't I? He is great! He treats me well! He even pays for my gas! Now that's true "friendship"! HAHAHA! My friends seem to enjoy Mr. F because he is a very funny individual with a huge personality to boot. I call him "my frat boy from Seattle". Especially when he brings his "boys" to town with him! What a fun time we have! Cops and fights and getting kicked out of bars.......that's a whole other story in itself. :) So here's to having a good, "reliable" friend on the side.......with benefits of course! :)

Mr. J2

Hmm......I should have listened to my friends on this one. But did I? Of course not! Because I seem to like to learn things the hard way! I was introduced to Mr. J2 by Mrs. D at Billy's after work one Friday afternoon. We automatically hit it off. He seemed very nice and interested in me. So what did I do? That's right.....moved way too fast and spent all my free time with him. Things were going great until we used the "l" word and he decided to try to become "friends" with his ex-girlfriend (who was dating Mr. C at the time.....weird coincidence? I think not!) . Anyways, we were very happy and cute. But were we? My friends hated me for him! Especially Mrs. D! It wasn't until the end when I caught him in a lie (and of course he blamed me for it, making me the bad guy) did I realize what was happening. I was blind and stupid! Mr. J2 was everything I thought I wanted. Boy was I wrong! He continued to tell me that she was "just his friend".....but we all know what that means.....a friend is someone that you haven't slept with yet. But in this case he had already slept with her. So was it to get her back? I will never know. We haven't spoken in 2 weeks. I still do want to be his friend. I don't know if that will ever happen. Am I stupid to want him back? Yes.....because I can not trust him......No......because he was "safe & convenient". A new car would be that though. But if it wasn't for Mr. J2 being a jerk......I would have never gone to Seattle and spent Halloween with Mr. J3 (my best friend who is gay). And if I hadn't spent Halloween with Mr. J3 I would have never met Mr. F. I will get to him later. So here's to good relationships gone bad......gone good! :)

Mr. A

Mr. A....ahhh....:) Unbelievable! Amazing! Out of this world! These are just a couple of phrases/words that come to mind. Mr. A got me with the "stripper dust" comment. He was playing pool with a couple friends of mine (Mr. R). He spoted me and noticed that I was wearing glitter.....like normal when I go out with the girls. Especially when I am "on the PROWL". So one thing led to another and we hit it off. He called me later that night and we got together for a drive. We ended up at his house. Back rubs were given and we watched the olympics. My phone rang so he answered it. And all I could hear was Mrs. M and Mrs. D (which I will talk about in 'THE GIRLS' blog later) telling him that if he wanted "some" then he better "give" some! No joke....10 minutes later he was downtown taking care of business. I still get shivers down my spine when I think about it! :) I was twitching on the bed for at least 20 minutes! My whole body was on fire! We had a very great evening. He drove me back to Mrs. D's house where my car was parked. Mr. A and I have not spoken or seen each other since then but his memory will live on! It was an evening for the record books! So here's to absolutely awesome one night stands worth talking about! :)

Mr. R

What can I say about Mr. R? Well we will keep this short just like his......ahem.....well you get the picture. Why do guys think that it is ok to get "theirs" and not finish the job with the ladies? I really don't think this is fair. Women like to get it just as bad as men. So what's the conclusion? Ask before you act! But most will just say, "it's ok baby...I will 'take care' of you!" YEAH RIGHT!! It might be really hard for me.....but if you know how to "push the right buttons" then it's ALL GOOD! So here's to one sided sex. :)

Mr. J1

Mr. J1........let's see. I met him when I was with Mr. M (bad). Scrawny track geek with glasses. When I saw him again.......let's just say, DAMN BOY!!! :) In a good way! We started "seeing" each other. But since Mr. J1 is so much of a player......you guessed it, booty. And not in a good way. It was all for him.....I would go over to his house.....give him "amazing" head (as he would say) and then leave. I remember how good of a person he used to be. We shared a lot of our personal life with each other. Since I was the only one he talked to (or so I thought).....it made me feel special. Time went by and Mr. J1 decided to cheat on me. But I overlooked it because I really liked him and enjoyed his company. He wormed his way into my life and my friends lives.....trying to sleep with a couple of them along the way. Succeeding occasionally. I wonder if he even thought about my feelings? Probably not due to being a guy. Now I know that is a HUGE steroetype....but I have not found one yet to prove me wrong. Mr. J1 and I are still friends.....he makes me mad most of the time but I still like him. He treats my friends bad.....not calling them. Or not inviting them to his parties when he is always invited to theirs. Total player....his M.O. (mode of operation) is phase 1 get friendly with a girl.....such as flirting and compliments just being compasionate about them.....then phase 2 is to sleep with them......and we can all guess what phase 3 is.....that's right!!!! Forget them!! Ignore them!! Be a total scum bag jerk to them!!! I choose to not let him do this to me. Even though I did go through all his phases! He is worth it though......DAMN!! Anyways.....sorry. Had a flashback there for a second! HAHAHAHA!! :) I even kept him on the line while I was working on things with Mr. D! What was I thinking?? It was those damn eyes and ripped body that did it....well....maybe something else too! But I wasn't getting any satisfaction out of it....just knowing that he loved every minute of it! And stuff must have been good.....because I tried to "cut him off" and he kept coming back for more! :) I wasn't trying to brag there....so anyways, on to the rest......Mr. J2....Mr. F.....Mr. N....you get the picture. I will also write about my "girls" too.......they are awesome! But that will be another time. :)

Mr. G

You were my neighbor and friend......we lost touch for several years. When we got back in touch all you wanted to do was get some and steal from me. Too bad.....you were a nice guy....sometimes. But one thing good & bad happened out of it all.....I got back in touch with Mr. J1. I hadn't talked to him in ages and he was your roomate. So thanks for the fun! :)

Mr. D

My 25 year old virgin....Mr. D. WOW! How did I get so lucky! Mr. D is my cousin's best friend of 20 some odd years. And since he knows me and my hardships decided to set me up with him on my 28th birthday. So we met and hit it off from the very first sight! We would call each other and keep in contact at least 3 times a week. One thing with Mr. D though.....he is a workaholic! Meaning he never takes a day off! In the 4 months that we dated, we spent maybe 10 days together. He only lives about 30 minutes away from me. I would always go down to see him. He never came up to see me. My guy friends.......Mr. J1 (I will get to him later) and Mr. C......"you are just a booty call!" This was not the case at all! The farthest that we got was sleeping in the same bed together. Yes we kissed but that's pretty much as far as it went. I enjoyed my time that I got to spend with him. Our only flaw was......communication! We could talk about everyone else and everything except our relationship. I shut down when I was around him because I was just so stoked that we were together. Not once did our relationship come up. I would talk to my cousin constantly about it.....he would say "I talked to your better half" or "I just got off the phone with your boyfriend". I would correct him and state that he was not my boyfriend, even though I acted as if he was. Come to find out, Mr. D was telling people that I was his girlfriend. Through the months that we dated......we made plans to go to Apple Cup together.....that's where the Huskies play the Cougars.....it's a HUGE football weekend. Needless to say, I am no longer going. :( Anyways, we had also made plans to go to Ellensburg for Labor Day weekend together. The weekend came and I drove over with my mother, father, and nephew who is 8. I called Mr. D to find out the final plans and got his voicemail......like normal. He called me right back and left me a voicemail stating that he was getting ready to get on a plane. I didn't think much of this. The next day we talked on the phone and he had told me that he was flying back from California for business.......which is not unusual. So he was tierd and didn't drive over. I got back late Sunday night and was invited to a BBQ at the "girls" house (Mrs. D & Mrs. C). I naturally called Mr. D and invited him to the BBQ. He gave me the standard answer of "Oh I don't know...." So I just went without him. We hung out maybe 2 times after this....once a week. Then at the end of September, I met Mr. J2. So it was Friday and no word from Mr. D.....totally normal. I went out with the girls to the casino.....Mr. J2 showed up also. I received a phone call from Mr. D around 10:30 pm. We talked on the phone for a little bit.....I invited him up to the casino......he declined but wanted to go to a movie with me. So he explained his "business" trip to California to me in depth. Turns out that he got "lucky" with a couple gals while he was down there. So there ends the "relationship" with Mr. D. Unfortunately by my thoughts.....I should have known better. For all the times I tried and he pushed me away! We are actually still friends now due to what happened with Mr. J2. And I can't believe it.....due to I treated him bad by not calling him for 2 months to explain what was going on. Who knows.....maybe someday it might work out with us. But let me tell you.....I can talk to him about anything now! (I will explain later.) Here's to forgiveness and huge hearts! :)

Mr. C

Now here's a new one for you. Mr. C.....what can I say about Mr. C? Well, we dated off and on for about 3 years. He helped me get out of the situation with Mr. M. But only one thing was wrong with Mr. C. He cared so much that it hurt our relationship. He is a very abrupt person. Meaning that he is very harsh. Not as far as controlling but more in the affect of emotions. He hardly worked when we were together.....which put me in a bind to pay for mostly everything. Now don't get me wrong, he would "pawn" everything he owned to buy things for us/him. But it would be nice every once in a while to receive flowers just because. I did love him. We had a very on again......off again relationship. I say this because when things went wrong....we would fight and I would leave. And yet again I would go back, because I was "in love". Mr. C and I would spend countless weekends together in seattle which were absolutely awesome! Very romantic.....things like this stopped throughout the relationship though. I moved in with him too fast. He never hurt me physically.....well not really. It was more emotional than anything. Things were going fine until I met someone new. Another Mr. M. So we had our share of turmoils due to who was cheating on who. I am the first to tell you that I am a drama queen. I enjoy it. I don't know why but i do. I guess it's because I like to be involved in my friends lives and trying to make them happy in the meantime. So this creates drama. Mr. C couldn't stand drama. I became very good friends with his family. Especially his mother. In fact, we still talk on a regular basis. I love her very much. She is very upset that her son and I didn't work out. So goes life though. Anyways, Mr. C and I decided to break it off because of me.....and my drama. I felt as though I couldn't trust him. This is a big thing for me. All in all though we didn't work out......we were "friends on the side". This worked for a little bit but then I decided that it was just too emotionally draining. Plus he was at a different state in his life. We are still friends but with no benefits. I hope that he is happy in life. I think that we have both learned something from our experience with each other. Here's to having good friends, no matter what happens in life. :)

Mr. J

You were my first "one night stand". I can't believe that we were friends for 2 years and then I came to see you for the weekend...we had the best weekend! :) I can still remember it! You and I used to talk everyday on the phone and send letters to each other at least once a week! I remember we started a "traveling" story. A "traveling" story is one of those stories that one person starts......then sends it to another person and they continue where you left off....and back and forth......so on and so on. Our story became really intimate......describing where we were. Even down to what the weather was outside and what music was on the radio. This story went back and forth between us for a couple of months. I think we finished about 10 pages of it or so....man I wish I still had a copy of it!! Anyways, I decided one weekend that I would surprise him and go visit him. So I got in my car and made the 6 hour drive to the ocean. I told Mr. M that I was going "camping" with the girls! (Boy was I sneaky!!) I showed up at the ocean around 7 pm. I met him at his school. I can still see his deep blue/green eyes looking at me. Oh this was it! We weren't going to sleep together......just sleep in the same bed. But you know how that goes......rubbing, kissing, molesting.......you get the picture. One thing led to another and we had sex about 10 times in the day and 1/2 that I was there. In the car, at the hotel, on the beach, in the woods...you get the idea. It was awesome! So I took off late on Sunday.....I made the 6 hour drive in under 3. WOW!!! I was haulin ass!! I went back to Mr. M like everything was great! Too bad I crashed on the couch as soon as I got home. Mr. M was somewhat suspicious. But I played it off well......hangover! (Too bad he never listened to me...I don't get hangovers!) After that weekend Mr. J and I kept in contact for a couple of months. But the letters started coming less than once a month and the phone calls were maybe once a week. And after that.......no letters......no phone calls. I occasionally try to find him. I have his families address but I have never done anything about it. Anyways, I will probably never see him again...though I can still remember everything about that weekend.....including the cologne on his body. I am sorry that it never went anywhere but a "great" weekend. I wish you were still around. I wonder if you think about me? Hmmm..................i'll probably never know. :)

Mr. M1

Mr. M1 was my absolute best friend growing up. He wanted to be my boyfriend for the longest time. Too bad I chose the WRONG Mr. M to date. Anyways, he was my true love's (Mr. A1) cousin. So this made it very hard to deal with. But I still enjoyed the time we spent together. Nothing ever really happened.....well, we kissed and hugged. Big deal! Or so that's what I thought. Boy was I wrong. We used to hang out all the time. He would drive me home everyday after school in his truck. We would just sit and talk all afternoon. My family adored him! So that was always a good thing. Since my father hated every "boy" that I brought home. He is the sweetest person that I know. We still have limited contact. Due to him being in the navy and isn't always around. I see him from time to time driving around town and I honk and wave. I still think about him...I want to make sure that he is doing ok and is safe. Sometimes I will call and leave him a message...it's just not the same though. Too bad for me. I miss him terribly. He used to be there for me no matter what was happening in my life. Maybe I should just bite the big one and call him. Maybe I should just invite him out or something. My friends probably would like him due to his personality. It's awesome! So here's to good friends past, present, and future! I love you! :)

Mr. B

Mr. B......I will never forget you. I just have one thing to say......BALD IS BEAUTIFUL! You may not have been mr. right.....but you were definetely mr. right now! And we had fun.....too bad Mr. M had to ruin it. But I guess it's for the best. You didn't want the type of relationship that I wanted. So here is too the good times that we shared.......*KISS*......I miss you. :)

Mr. M

I was 16 when I met him. I had just gotten out of a very bad relationship with my best "friend". Who decided to cheat on me after he forced himself on me. Yes, he raped me. But until now I haven't really talked about it, except to my friends. I didn't want to let it out to my family due to growing up in such a strict, old fashioned background. My father would have killed him if he knew. Anyways, since I was not looking for a commitment or any type of relationship at all...I didn't think anything would happen when I met Mr. M. It was the end of November and rather cold outside. I only remember this due to when I tried to leave, Mr. M wouldn't let me leave and kept talking to me. So weeks went by and Mr. M and I talked on the phone pretty much daily. Then one day I called him and his mother told me that he was out with his girlfriend. I figured that was that, we had met and that was it. Well, that wasn't it. Mr. M decided to invite me to a new year's eve party that his best friend was hosting. They had rented out the entire ice arena. On went the night and Mr. M decided to ask me out. I naturally said yes. Weeks went by and my friends didn't think it would last.......to tell you the truth, neither did I. Days turned into weeks......weeks turned into months.......months turned into years......and so on. Well, all was very happy at the begining. But my friends warned me that he needed to go. Even my cousin, who I hadn't seen in ages, told me that he wasn't "the one". He came to watch me show my horse with his best friend.....Mr. D, who I will talk about later. And so goes the story. After a couple of years, Mr. M and I were not happy. So I did what any sensible girl would do.......I cheated on him........6 times!!!!!! That's right, I said it......6 times. And with 6 different guys no less. We broke it off, but that wasn't the mistake......the mistake was that I went back to him! Now what was I thinking?? I was "in love". Or I thought I was. Mr. M and I decided to move in with each other. I should have seen the warning signs......we moved out on the first day of spring. Most people from this area know that the first day of spring is pretty wet and rainy. Not for us!! Oh no!! It SNOWED!!!!! So that should have been the first red flag. The second came about a month later when Mr. M came home for lunch, just like he did everyday, and cracked open 4 wine coolers and 3 beers. Now I really didn't think anything of this. But then I started to notice that this was happening everyday and everynight after work too! The drinking didn't bother me very much. It was the violent temper that came along with it. Mr. M knew that I cheated on him. He was always leary of where I was going and who with. But this is natural. I was sincerely sorry and wanted to make things work. So the years went on.......the fighting continued now more often even without the influence of alcohol. I had full beer cans thrown at me. He would "wrestle" with me until I couldn't breathe. One night we went to a party at his best friend's house, which was right next door. He was having a great time like normal getting naked for all the other women but not me, so I decided to leave the party. I was bored and tired. Plus at this point in time I was a full time student and working 2 jobs. I went to leave and one of his "friends" told me to stay out of his business and pinned me against the wall with a chair. By this time I was so scared I didn't know what to do except scream! The police showed up but we had already left the party. All I remember about that night is that I shouldn't be there......at the party or in the relationship at all! I tried to leave him. But of course like a dummy.......I came back. Everything was fine for a while. Too bad he was a jerk and decided to throw me down a flight of stairs which were 3 stories and cement. I still have the scar to prove that one. I remember waking up at the bottom of the stairs thinking that I had never seen my father do that to my mother. Now why was I putting myself threw this? I was "in love". The relationship finally ended 8 years later when I caught Mr. M in a lie. He was more involved with a "friend" of his than I had given him credit for. Now I know, I cheated on him and I should have forgave him for it. But I think I paid my dues with the 8 years of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse that I got. It also helped that Mr. C came into my life. But I will get to him later too. All in all......Mr. M helped me grow as a person if nothing else. So here ends my story of Mr. M. If you want to know more, just ask me. I don't really remember all 8 years......kinda a blur. But I will try. :)